10/07/2007

Book of Esther: Chapter 5 (Updated study)

Note: To read the third chapter of this book, please click on the following link: http://www.breslov.com/bible/Esther5.htm#5This way I hope that you will be able to follow, and understand the study much easier.)


Haughtiness comes before the fall. It's a well-known saying that has, like the Torah, withstood all the hardship in every time. And it has proven as many times its tremendous power, just as G-d's word in our Torah has done so as well by being humankind’s illuminating light. We would almost have to assume that both are related to each other. Yes, that both through the knowledge of something much more important than just living a life by nature have helped us to reveal what was hidden, and new revelations about His word in the Torah became a common knowledge. This won’t of course be that strange to the one who is lectured into the matter. But it's naturally just a sign of weakness to the one who lives in a far away land, completely cut off from every ability to love G-d, even from all His wisdom, love and warmth He could put into that person’s heart, or rather mind. Life is what it is for such a person, and nothing more. Only the strength of his/her muscles is what counts. This kind of man, woman, child, or even an entire people won’t ever remember what could be remembered, as how it really happened. Yeah, in certain times we say never again. However, those who have completely or partially disconnected themselves from the source, the very source of all life, will without doubt forget time and time again what truly did occur. It's not so much that they in freedom of decision do want to forget, to ignore the light, but are often, and as good as always, being taught and/or forced to do so because deep inside the inner depth of every society who has to live by such a rule, the alternative of really making an effort of accepting G-d's light, the reflection in the mirror of their own light is just unbearable. What they will see is what they don't want to remember, don't want to accept as being a reality ever. Nevertheless, it's not so much what they, or their grandparents or great-grandparents have done wrong that is embarrassing them. No, it's more the revelation that there is really something more to life than just a person’s presence within the world s/he lives. Looking into the mirror of their being reveals their soul. It entices them to learn in coming to terms with the reality of whom they are, realizing that they aren't only a human being of flesh and blood, but that they need to behave as one as well. Some call it a person's conscience while others refer to it as that tiny little voice you hear bursting through the barrier of sound all around us, and sometimes put extremely loud so that the person(s) in question won't hear that ‘angelic’ voice whispering in their ears, trying to warn them, to bring them back to reason, to a life, the only life, worthwhile to be lived. The sound of music by the way, whether from above or below, is not meant to make you deaf, on the contrary, its purpose is to caress the soul with tenderness and sweetness so that it will reflect into that person's behavior. It will without doubt change into ugliness once man would trespass the border of what good decent music within a respectable volume can bring to humanity. The image they will see within a mirror is thus one which people often don't want to remember once they are faced with their inhumane reality.


But true, we have to make a distinction between those who have done inhumane deeds, or are willing to commit them, and them who have thrown their religious life overboard, those who have become secular, or even worse, namely in that they have disconnected themselves completely from it, arguing that no G-d and neither gods do exist. They have their reasons as much as the believer in G-d has his/her. But even when we seem to be not entitled to connect them onto the same wavelength as the one of the others spoken about just above, then they nevertheless should be considered as being a part of the same world. Integral or not is of course a matter of perception because there are always exceptions to the case, or any case for that matter. Anyhow, it's after all a well known fact that many, to not say all, will often, or eventually in later generations, join forces with those who have throughout the ages tried to bring down the Torah, even Eretz Yisrael. Whether they do it consciously or not is beyond the point once they join the ones who don't fear to trample the most sacred thing that exists within a man's life, even of Jew and gentile alike. However, the seemingly fearless life they portray is in reality one overflowing of fear, as they act out of fear for that what they don't want to hear about. They don't want to be reminded on the fact that they have, or are in the process of throwing their entire life through the sewage system. Yes, we therefore should make a distinction because the ultimate goal of their behavior is one that doesn't want to remember the Torah, and don't want the people of it to be remembered as having ever existed, let stand still being a presence within the midst of human society, nor as a nation on G-d's chosen land for them within that world, their world as they perceive it, no stranger allowed, no G-d, at least not the one of the Torah! Thus the indifference to their inhumane actions, like the one that Haman is now trying to get fulfilled, the reason of their alienation with the source of all life, is because it’s their mirror, the complete opposite of how they are behaving at present. And the people who represent G-d's light are like a clear to very clear reflection within their troubled waters, an image they don't want to witness in front of them time and time again because they don't want to lose the pleasure(s) that isn't/aren't really one(s) at all. Like G-d is working within the time of queen Esther in a veiled manner, those people's hatred, even their revenge is veiled to them, the true and only reason that is. They won't truly and honestly accept it as such unless they wholeheartedly do commit themselves to better their lives, and thus lifestyle. Yeah, instead of saving their life by joining forces with the One that sanctifies life, they throw it all away by joining the army of dead, a world living by the rule of the strongest, or push or become pushed. The only question is: How should we respond to it, to such an assault on a human's very existence that is, his/her raison d' être, even an entire people's one, and its sanctity they preserve at all costs?


Why does the person who beliefs in the G-d of the Torah want to leave the sanctity of His presence? Do we have to view it with the same perception as those bullies spoken about? Does it mean that the Torah, that yes G-d is awful, not to be remembered, the same as when people want to forget whatever human atrocity that has been committed vis-à-vis another human being, no matter when it’s done through word and/or deed? Should we put it on an equal footage?


We of course will have to first of all remember the difference between what is truly good and wrong, defense, even pre-emptive defense, and offense in military terms spoken before we can answer these kind of questions. A person who has cut all ties with such a remembrance will often turn it the other way around because what s/he perceives is completely opposite to how the other party sees it. First we will have thus to try in bringing both closer to one another, realizing at the same time that only one will have to discard the destructive vision of its future, namely the disappearance from the face of the earth of the other one (G-d and His people in this case), no matter how it becomes fulfilled. There is thus no compromise possible in this. You can't appease as it will only strengthen the other one's belief in his trueness when it's not, and not s/he will fall, but you will! This is something we also witness within the Megillah of Esther with Haman. Haman is so full of haughtiness due to his power, and all the luxury that comes with it, especially the one wherewith he has been given a free hand to do what he seems fit with all the constituencies of the king's empire, even the Hebrew/Jewish population, that he has lost his ability to be human, or to grasp the opportunity in finally becoming one. Hence, he was given the power to correct, in his perception, a defeat of one of his people's ancestors. And he at the end will only just empower the rightness of that defeat, having learnt nothing at all. However, when we read, or study the matter more carefully and deeply, then we again see emerging a correlation with the world above. Now it's reflecting itself in a more opposite manner when we take queen Esther's way of orchestrating the salvation of her people into consideration. She is trying to find wisdom, help and strength with G-d. She hopes that He will guide her to do what’s right. In the previous chapter, she asked Mordecai and the entire Hebrew/Jewish nation to do the same. Her power as a queen is therefore found within her profound belief in Him. He is the one she turns to for advice, for guidance in these extremely difficult times which befalls her and her people. But we on the other side of the spectrum do have Haman who doesn't turn to G-d, even not his gods if he does have them, but only to his friends, family and wife. They are his gods for the moment so to speak. Their advice is his religion, his belief. It's his truth. When it sounds well into his ears, then and only then will it be okay. If Mordecai, queen Esther, and even the entire Hebrew/Jewish nation would have appeased, no salvation would have occurred, and the entire nation would have fallen prey to the hostilities.


This isn't the way a G-d believing person, like Mordecai and queen Esther really were, would act. Neither is it the one of an entire people who beliefs honestly and deeply in the one and only G-d. Whether they thus like it or not what G-d tells them, or asks them to do, they will obey Him, and not Haman, as they within the depth of their heart do know that it's all meant for their well-being, not their downfall. And yes, there is fear because G-d doesn't say how it all will unfold itself. Nevertheless, this fear can't be truly interpreted as one of fear. It rather has to be seen as one of hope, hope on a brighter future, one we don't know anything of yet in what it will really bring us. But we, when we don't grasp it firmly with both hands, will never know, nor will our children do so, and even their children unless the prophet Eliyah comes telling them a most blessed story of a king named David from out of which will arise a branch, namely Moshiach ben David through king David's next generations of daughters. He will correct a mistake the king once made, to bring even salvation over his kingdom, and so upon all of the children/people of Yisrael, of Yaacov (=Jacob). Yeah, just like queen Esther is bound to repair one that one of her ancestors had made, namely king Saul, the king who preceded king David. True, not out of his son, king Shlomo, will Moshiach ben David arrive in later times. Only always out of a daughter, and a mother in that particular time, will the savior of humankind, the one we all do await, come into the world. This will happen at the set time, even when the majority would have alienated themselves from and against G-d. When it seems to come earlier than expected, then it can only refer to the moment of Moshiach ben Yoseph, also better known as the return of the prophet Eliyah. He will arise out of a daughter too. His lineage is most probably connected to that of king Shlomo. It's a backwards philosophy, but one that makes sense as you can only learn about the past, remember it correctly, when you go backwards, so to become in the ability of moving forwards, to burst through the circle others have imprisoned themselves in by forgetting what never should be forgotten at all. Yes, what we may never forget is the Torah because there will be no need to remember the atrocities of the bullies, neither will they have to once we succeed in this, in keeping the Light of Humankind alive and well within the depth of our heart, but in reality our human mind. This can only happen when all the people of the world in unison of a soul's mind won't forget it in first instance, no matter their diversities in being who they are, even within their personal belief. Just as G-d is one, so are we a oneness together, belonging to one body and soul only, namely the embodiment of life. And we in this oneness do work together as souls of light, never darkness, helping each member to fulfill the task of light s/he has been given to fulfill. Yes, G-d represents the masculinity and femininity within us all, and so will do Moshiach ben David, even Moshiach ben Yoseph.


We in a certain way have to admit that queen Esther became part of all these moments in time wherein people do try to correct a situation that is almost bound to go out of control. And it at the same time does keep preserving the ultimate destiny for all of humankind, not just the one of the Hebrew/Jewish nation alone. Yes, even king Ahasuerus kingdom will for the time being be saved. These are therefore recurrences which always do give the entire world the most blessed opportunity of starting to live a more peaceful life for generations to come, but only when anticipated rightly, and thus not with a man’s ego. Everyone can grasp it with both hands, or join Haman into their destruction. No man will be taken away his/her freedom to choose what s/he thinks is the right thing to do in whatever situation, but will also have to bear the consequences of that decision like Haman had to succumb to his. Anyhow, the most important lesson we should remember from this chapter is that before we want to do something good within a world that is hostile, or is to become hostile, is to look into the depth of our own mind, the place where we learn about our oneness with every single form of life, and make the right move, the only choice we can make, no matter the danger, or the risk involved because when we truly do so within a G-d's guidance, then one day or another everything will happen for the good of all, as did happen during Moshe's time as well. There things went completely wrong in first instance, but it all at the end turned out to become a brilliance, a radiance of light that no one had seen, or witnessed before. And it’s within such a state of the mind that queen Esther went to the king, and he received her without anger. It even does teach us thus that the king was a very human being, and not the kind of person that we're seemingly told to belief in when having only read the first chapters of this Megillah. In a sense, he does reflect G-d in this way, as he shows compassion, love and tenderness, seeing that something is bothering/disturbing his queen so deeply that she does ignore a rule of the king that could have put her to death. He therefore has even decided to give her the half of his kingdom, so to know what it is for she was prepared to give up her own life. At the same time are we being lectured again about the differences between her and Haman, as he will become haughty, but not the queen, nor Mordecai, and neither anyone of the Hebrew/Jewish nation. It's a very classical representation of a clash between good and wrong, a clash of two civilizations that will become prevented by the king's ruling regarding Haman and his followers wherewith this attempt will regress, but not be forgotten. Neither will the other side forget it for the time being till all of humankind will succeed in bringing themselves into the limelight of G-d's warmth, love and compassion, the sanctity of life thus with utmost respect to the rules, the commandments, even laws He has given us all through Moshe.


What will you do as a person, and being a member of humanity: will you join the forces of Haman, or those of queen Esther? Yes, will you choose wisely or defiantly, in humbleness or haughtiness? Can you come before the king with respect, tenderness and softness, a beauty of body, mind and soul alike, or with all the power you were once given, namely with brutality, and arrogance, a bully alike, even when presenting yourself as being a nice fellow citizen, the same misleading attitude which Haman practiced as well in first instance?


There is no in-between when answering these above questions. We can only choose the one or the other because when we would try to walk upon the centerline between both, then we will just strengthen those who want to harm the people of queen Esther. The queen knew thus that she had to be very careful in how to proceed, in how to bring it all to the king's attention. Therefore she decided to do so by walking the path of wisdom, not of greediness, of reward. It's not the half of his kingdom that she wants. It's His entire Kingdom, His light that she hopes to become a full and integral part of. She knew through the wisdom she had acquired throughout her entire life that there’s no worldly material that can give you yours or your people's salvation. And so she wisely awaits the moment when she feels in her heart that she only at that precise moment can tell it the king. She therefore invites the king and Haman to come again to the meal she will prepare for both of them, and it all went miraculously into the right direction for her people because she had made the right choice, and so did Mordecai, even every member of her people at that particular moment in time. Haman's hatred had become so huge that it became incurable. Clearly, it wasn't just the fact that Mordecai hadn’t bowed down before him. This was only the excuse, just as the Pharaoh of Egypt tried to use Moshe’s behavior as the excuse to harden his stance. And so will others try to harden their stance upon the shoulders of the Hebrew/Jewish nation till all of humankind truly will learn in how to become acquainted with His wisdom in utmost respect for His light, the same one as queen Esther here portrays to us, even to the king, a gentile, not a Hebrew/Jew. Yes, it doesn't matter that you aren't Jewish because the values of humanity which the Torah offers to the world entire are the ones humankind cannot only preserve its existence with, then as well start moving forward out of a seemingly endless circle with no escape possible out of it. However, this circle is not a prison. It has a door that’s even never closed. We can all walk through it as easy as can be. We only have to want it within the depth of our heart, above all mind, and before you know it, you will enter an entire new world never seen before, the same as what happened during Moshe's lifetime, even to all those, Hebrew/Jew and gentile alike, who went with him to the Promised Land, Eretz Yisrael, even Eretz Tziyyon.

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